My first date of the year was last night. It will probably be my only date of the year, haha. It was pretty fun though. His name is Josh, he's a PK, Asian, in the marine reserves, and a science major in his senior year. We went to see Up at the discount theater (at my request) and then a book store to hang out in.
I cried a little in Up when the little boy's dad didn't show up to the badge pinning ceremony, but then all the sudden the older guy was there to take the father's place. I want that. Not that my dad just isn't there at all, but that was the thought that went through my head at that scene, "I want that." A grandpa who will buy both his grand daughters stuffed animals instead of being so cheap that he only buys them one to share. A dad who gets his daughter good quality and what she would like, not what he thinks is a bargain and he wants.
During the movie, Josh kept looking over when I laughed and kept fidgeting, so I thought that was a good sign. When we went to the bookstore though, he got kind of awkward and I felt like his body language was trying to inch him towards the exit door. However, when we got in the car to go back to campus, he asked me if there was anywhere else I wanted to go. I didn't reach over and give him a hug goodnight when he dropped me off at my dorm, I probably should have (there were no spaces available for him to park and walk me).
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Lately, I have been feeling kinda of frustrated at Ed. I just can't believe sometimes that I have fallen prey to such a cliche thing. I mean, Eds are for weak people, those who don't understand nutrition and what they are doing, people who have no confidence or self-esteem, dumb people who can't see what they are doing is obviously damaging and does no good. That's how I feel a lot. Ashamed that it would happen to me.
I have been keeping track on paper and following Alice's diet for me. It's really not fun to follow sometimes, but I know that I feel better when I do.
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