The Name

I went to see He's Just Not That Into You last night and thoroughly enjoyed it. I actually found on the actors semi-attractive in it -which is good, because since breaking up with Alex, I have not found anyone else even remotely attractive, in fact, the idea of kissing anyone else or even hugging anyone but Alex for a long period of time is totally revolting. So I was excited when I thought the actor was good looking, and then it hit me -the actor's character's name was Alex.
-_-'


I hate being alone, and my heart really wants to be with Alex. I miss his arms and his smile and the twinkle in his eye. Before I fall asleep, I am usually jolted back into consciousness because I feel his touch on my skin. My head tells me that I shouldn't be with him, that he can't give me the love and time and emotional depth that I desire and need -I just wish my heart would listen. I look at my phone and am dissapointed when the text message isn't from him; but when it is from him, I get annoyed at myself for wanting it to be him. I see him in class on Tuesday and Thursdays and usually at dinner (we met at the beginning of freshman year, so we have the same friends). I tried making new friends last semester and failed miserably, so I'm not about to try again.



P.S.
I just watched Britney Spear's music video for Circus -I seriously hope I can be as sexy as that for my husband!