" One night, I got so upset that I feel so unworthy, I ran as far as fast as I could outside (it had to be in the low 40's, at the highest). I sprinted almost 2 miles, crying half the time because Christ's love and sacrifice is so beyond my understanding. I actually ended up running past Alex as he was walking to his dorm, so we walked around the semi-circle 2 or 3 times just talking about it. I was kinda scared he'd be like, "wow, I can't date you, you're clearly insane." But he didn't, he just did what he could, he listened. "
That was the night (sometime in December 2007, but posted January 3, 2008) that I realized I had believed/felt like I was unlovable. I had believed that lie for a long time. I still find myself believing it sometimes, but now I know the truth. Dating Alex helped me find that out. I believe God used my relationship with Alex and what has happened with my Dad since I left for college to teach me about His love for me and to teach me that I am capable of being loved.
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