Sara is right, I need to stop thinking about dating only in terms of marriage. I mean, yeah, the point of dating should ultimately be to find one's future spouse, but that does not mean that just because I am not dead certain that I could marry a guy that I should not get into a relationship with him.
I am just kind of bothered by the fact that, unless I am in a public place and a guy is touching me (short kiss on the forehead, stroking my arm) or I am touched in a way/place that is new, it's pretty hard for me to really get into being physical. I wish I did, Alex seems to have enjoy kissing so much. I think I might enjoy it more if I could really be loose, but I can't because I need to keep my cool so that I can stay a virgin 'till marriage -that desire to stay pure holds me back, which is good, but I feel like it gets in my way of enjoying what I can because I try to stay in control.
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