How do you tell someone that you are having a rough semester when every semester has been rough? If rough is the norm, shouldn't you be able to adapt to it? Shouldn't it get easier as you go through it for an extended period of time? I want to tell people I am just having a bad day, or a stressful week, or a hard semester, but I have had quite a few consecutive semesters that I would describe as difficult.
I had to skip my 9am class today because I started crying at the end of my 8am. At 11am, when I was working out, I was seriously considering whether or not I should just go home to Florida and get an apartment there to be with my sister. I would not have to worry about keeping a 3.5 GPA at UCF and I would be close to Mary and there would be no crazy cold weather. The thought even crossed my mind that maybe I should just let me grades slide and lose my scholarship to have an excuse to go back home. Also, I am unsure of where I will be living and with whom I will be rooming with next year.
At the end of the school day, I went back to my room and checked my e-mail and facebook. There was an email in my inbox from the public relations person at Asbury. She said that she had read an article mentioning that an Asbury student was mentoring a little girl through the Amachi program and wanted to know if I (she figured out I was the Asbury student) would be willing to meet for an interview that would appear on the college website. I was curious as to what this article was, so I clicked on the link she gave me (the article that mentioned an Asbury student mentoring). The article described how a 6 year old boy was battling cancer and how a sorority at UK had adopted him and partnered with the family to help. It briefly mentioned the little girl who I will be mentoring and how she was involved with the Amachi program.
In reading about Haley's (the girl) family, her brother, and everything that has happened, I started to cry, but tears of joy. It gave me hope and a reason to be here.
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