As I was putting Hamlet into the DVD player yesterday (I had to watch it for school), Alyssa called me and asked if I wanted to go out to dinner. After considering my options -comparing Hamlet the play to Hamlet the movie, or dinner with Alyssa-, I happily chose Alyssa. When I arrived at her house, she informed me that Stephen would be meeting us there... oh great, the guy from work that I'm interested in is coming to diner with us and I didn't even put on mascara. So we stopped at Albertsons on the way to Applebees and I bought some mascara (Covergirl Professional, of course).
Sadly, I later discovered that I wasted some good mascara on a stupid boy... It seems like I'm the only person who doesn't drink. Alyssa and Stephen got in a conversation about how Phil parties all the time (he's going to Rollins this year, so I guess I should have just assumed he parties) and how Kelly likes to eat Vodka doused watermelon.
It just always takes me aback a little when I hear that someone that I know gets drunk and does other "stupid stuff." And when Alyssa mentioned that she and her cousin got in a car with a drunk guy earlier that day (though they didn't know he was drunk until he started driving), Stephen said he had some experience with that too: he and his friends had "been drinking a little" and Stephen -drunk as well- drove everyone home. However, he drove home without his lights on, at night, because one of his friends told him to. Therefore, I wasted good mascara. He said that was in his only time drinking and driving... I guess I just thought he would be a "good kid". I'm beginning to wonder if there is such thing as a guy who is as... well, doesn't drink, smoke, do drugs, and isn't making out with girls every Friday night.
I shouldn't wonder/worry about it though, 'cus God's got this one and He has it figured out where I am, where I am going, who I will meet, and when/if I find the guy for me. I shouldn't be so avidly looking for him anyway, God has His plan and will work it out in His timing. I just gotta trust Him. However, I wanna stop "waiting my life" for this dream guy that society has fed to me and I want to begin "living my life" for God and for the call that He has placed on my life. God can bring a man to partner with if He wants, but I won't let my wanting a guy get in the way of what God has created me to do: serve Him and follow Him with reckless abandonment.
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