Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Self Respect

I could never kiss Austin. Not now, not until he is older and ready to be in a relatonship with me. I cherish him too much. I wish I would cherish myself that much.

Last night, I hurt an old friend when I kissed him out of just friendly affection, and he took it the wrong way. I think I broke his heart. I didn't know my action would hurt him so deeply.

I felt so horrible that my mind twisted and told me that two wrongs make a right. I wanted to forget about what I had done to my friend and so, when my other friend called me up and asked if I wanted to come over and "do stuff," I said yes. I wanted to do be physical with the second guy 'cus I felt like it would help me forget about the first. I was so wrong.

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