How?

I went to Starbucks this evening with Justin.
Honestly, how did I end up dating someone so selfish? My guy friends back home and here answer all my texts immediately, would come if I needed them even if they had something going on, say really sweet things without me having to prompt them, and actually want to hang out with me even on weeknights. And they want to talk to me. And they compliment more than just my body. And they are willing to try new restaurants or go new places.

Honestly, how is it that I still have to stop myself from talking about him all the time (and am often unsuccessful)? He is pretty much over me. Justin told me tonight I either need to do everything in my power to distract and separate myself from him, or I need to get back together from him. I asked him tonight if he still thought about me, he said "no, no really."