Feels Like It Just Lingers

Amy to Andy:

hey

your ex knows my feelings so well

she and I were like, "woah, we're emotional twins"

we talked about how we love and hate you at the same time

how we want to get over you, but we're scared that isn't possible and you will move on and we won't

*you being you and Alex, not just you

we talked about you both promised us we would be friends, but then you go off and decide we're better off not talking to you much and hardly seeing you, and it hurts because we want to be friends with you and build that and ya'll go on and decide against what you promised us upon breaking up

and how we cry ourselves to sleep every night and every time we see you, we try so hard not to be near you, but every part of our being is screaming to near you

I feel like that dumb girl in the movie that everyone is yelling at like "why can't you just move on?!"

but it's not as simple as it seems to be in the movies...

I am dreading the summer because I will not see him for 3 months, but I know in my head (not in my heart) that it will probably be better, but I am so scared of not being around him