Counseling

Me at the Natural History Museum in the DINOSAUR exhibit! Yay Dinosaurs!



almost broke up with Alex today. We talked things out after dinner and he agreed to come to counseling with me, so we did not. Throughout the day, I would randomly burst into tears at the slightest thought of him and the idea of breaking up with him, breaking up with a man I love. A friend came up behind me and hugged me and I thought it was Alex; when I realized she wasn't Alex, I started bawling (I was at the lunch table, surrounded by my friends on the left and some staff on the right). I cried in the shower after swimming. I cried this morning while getting ready to work out. I cried a lot at lunch even after the hug. Meh. I am going tomorrow to make the counseling appointment. He and I are both going, together.

If almost breaking up sucks this much and takes this much out of me, there is no way I can make it through a break up and still keep my head above water. Something will suffer, whether it be grades, my finances, my weight, or my friendships, if I go through a break up similar to today's "almost break up."


P.S.
D.C. was fun. Left 3 days before the inauguration, so no crazy crowds for me =). Met congresspeople, the senate chaplain, people working in the white house, people working for NGO's, people working in missions in the slums. It was neat. Even saw an outdoor skating rink and learned how to tie a scarf.